Why You're Feeling Numb
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For me, it started with an unexpected jolt. Like I had been violently shaken awake from a trance that I didn’t even realize I was in.
I didn’t ask for it. I wasn’t looking for it. And even once it happened I was desperately trying to figure out anything that I could do to “make things go back to normal” to like they were before my eyes had been forcefully opened.
I didn’t want it. I wanted to go back to sleep.
But no matter what I did, no matter how many times I begged, pleaded, bargained or resisted, there was no going back.
Everywhere I looked it was like I was seeing things for the first time. With a new, painful sense of clarity. Things that I never saw before but somehow had always been right in front of me. Things I had refused to acknowledge. Things I told myself couldn’t be real. Things that seemed absurdly irrational. Things that appeared to be truly, well…evil.
It was like a veil had been lifted and I was suddenly seeing the real world for the first time.
The word “revelation” can be interpreted as “a veil being lifted” or, more directly defined as “the divine or supernatural disclosure to humans of something relating to human existence or the world.”
But it’s more than just mere coincidence that the word “revelation” is connected with “divine or supernatural disclosure” because it was like I was suddenly seeing the entities behind actions that had previously been invisible to my naked eye.
It was like a veil had been lifted and suddenly, where I would usually just the everyday goings on of mundane life, it was like I could see an entirely new reality playing out right in front me—right out in front of the entire world—but no one else seemed to notice.
People were acting irrationally. Blatantly counter to their own survival and wellbeing. As if they had been entranced and were being controlled from an outside entity that was leading them to their own, tortuous, demise.
Institutions that were typically looked at as the bedrock of our communities, to steward us and future generations toward a better future, had been infiltrated and corrupted with ideals that were not only counterproductive for a better tomorrow, but were outright antithetical to life itself.
It wasn't just that everything that I had been using to navigate the world just 10 seconds ago was gone, it’s that everything I had been using to navigate the world had been intentionally inverted and was leading me, leading us, towards inevitable decay.
When you suddenly lose the framework you had always used to understand the outside world, you can no longer navigate within it. There are no longer reference points. No markers. No trail headings. Just chaos and disorder.
And so you revert back to the only thing left that you can trust. The only thing left on solid, sane ground. The only thing left that you know, for sure, is real. Yourself.
And, turning inward, taking that first raw glance into the mirror, with new eyes, that’s when you have the most terrifying realization yet. You’re not even the person that you thought you were. The person you had always “known.”
When that sudden awakening happened, not only did you start seeing the world as it truly is for the first time, you also started seeing yourself as you truly are for the first time.
And you’re completely unrecognizable to yourself.
“And when all of that begins to fracture at once, all that you’re left with is this vast, open void where your identity used to be.
Not just empty—but echoing. Like standing in a house you’ve lived in your entire life, only to realize it was made of cardboard. That the foundation was paper. The windows were painted on. And no one ever noticed. Not even you.” - The Mastery Paradigm™
If you’ve been feeling numb lately, like things don’t feel like they did just a few days ago, like you’re waiting for things to “feel normal again” or “feel like you did last week” and you can’t quite explain why, it’s because you’re experiencing that void.
It’s not that the world has suddenly changed—it’s that YOU have. And you’re now seeing the world as it is, as it’s been all along, for the first time.
The illusion you were living in was shattered the moment the rules were so brazenly broken—and openly celebrated.
The “common” agreements that you relied on for mutual safety never existed in reality but it was easier—more comfortable—to assume that they did because to think that they didn’t would mean that you were gravely unprepared for the very real possibilities that might happen if they weren’t.
There is no plea, no bargain you can make that will magically change this reality and transport you back to that place of perceived safety.
And as we’ve been so painfully reminded time and time again as of recent, (1) tomorrow is not guaranteed and (2) no one is coming to save you. It is up to you to ensure the safety of yourself and your family.
If you’re having trouble “getting back to normal” after the events—and reactions—of the last few weeks, you’re not alone.
That’s exactly why I wrote The Mastery Paradigm™. Not as another “self-help book,” but as a map through this kind of disorientation. Through the shattering of identity, and the first steps of rebuilding.
If you’re feeling lost, you might find the language for what you’re experiencing there. But if all you need right now is to talk, I’m happy to listen. Send me an email at [email protected].
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